I think it's OK to decide you don't want to keep trying to get into DEI. But you could be tapped on the shoulder for sure! Are there any other departments that you would consider? Are there any that, if you were tapped on the shoulder, you would *not* pursue?
I think it's really interesting that you went from obsessed/writing fanfic to watching it but not totally fangirling. In my head (and this is 100% just in my head since I write no fanfic) I feel like I would be more likely to want to write fanfic if I was unhappy with the current direction of a show I was watching - cuz I'd want to find something to make it better! Or like x is what they SHOULD have done.
I think it's really interesting. There's lots of shows and stuff that I really enjoy watching, and will enjoy re-watching (sometimes over and over and over) but I've never had the urge to put pen to paper about it (or, ya know, fingers to keyboard).
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I think it's really interesting that you went from obsessed/writing fanfic to watching it but not totally fangirling. In my head (and this is 100% just in my head since I write no fanfic) I feel like I would be more likely to want to write fanfic if I was unhappy with the current direction of a show I was watching - cuz I'd want to find something to make it better! Or like x is what they SHOULD have done.
I think it's really interesting. There's lots of shows and stuff that I really enjoy watching, and will enjoy re-watching (sometimes over and over and over) but I've never had the urge to put pen to paper about it (or, ya know, fingers to keyboard).