stormkeeper_lovedoris | I feel a bit like an idiot

I'm not sure quite how I feel right now. I'm at a 4 day planning meeting with my department and - long story short - there are very icky group dynamics and I've never felt that I fit in too well with these folks. Today at dinner they asked me to join them afterwards at the bar, something that I never do because: 1) I'm not a drinker, hardly ever drink booze, and 2) the group dynamics are icky, like I said. I don't know why I agreed to join them at the bar; maybe it was because I was happy that they asked and deep down I do want to fit in.

So long story short, I joined them, drank too much, made somewhat of an ass of myself. Maybe not a total ass but a partial ass. Everyone was friendly and smiling but in my gut I don't feel this went well.

One of them did say that I was always welcome to join them and never had to drink booze, that I could just have water. That was nice.

Well, done is done. Hopefully my credibility isn't too shot with this group. And like I said, I never fit in that well to start with so...how much worse could it be?

I guess I'll see tomorrow.

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Hey, cool new icon!

Thanks! I did one for each of the Misfits playing their instruments (Pizzazz with mike).

You're very insightful!

I'm glad to have been of help. Sometimes just getting to the bottom of what's bothering you goes a long way towards dispelling that weird feeling.

Office negativity sucks harder than most anything else, and I'm sorry you have to be subjected to it. *hugs*

I feel a bit like an idiot

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