3 things plus more thoughts on fanfic

[stormkeeper_lovedoris]

 
1. Yesterday I went out canvassing for Lauren Underwood. It went well and I'm glad to be helping out. I'm taking Tuesday off so I can canvas for Sean Casten. 

2. Today Doris and I had another quiet Sunday mostly at home together

3. On Tumblr, two FS fans are organizing an FS Secret Santa exchange. I had hoped they would! Even though my muse is gone, I really want to do this.

And speaking of the above....While I was changing the bedsheets today, I had a good 'talking to myself' session about my now-disappeared drive to write. First I asked myself that if I were being brutally honest, do I write because I love to write or because I want reviews?

I thought the answer was somewhere in between.

But then I asked myself that if I had more reviews and kudos, would I write more and would I perhaps not've had my muse disappear?

I answered yeah, probably. But then I also countered that my beta tester J has been so good; she reads everything I write and gives detailed, great feedback. I'd write just for her. (I also have a second beta, L, who is not as effusive but still gives good comments). But the fact remains that despite J and L and their almost-guaranteed good feedback, I'm not writing. So then perhaps the answer truly is that I don't do it just for the comments. I think I do lean on the side of writing because of love of the craft.

So overall I think that's a good thing? Even though it doesn't solve my muse-disappeared problem.

Comments

[gokuma]

But why is "wanting reviews" bad? I know there's that grand idea that we should write only for the joy of creating and that's out there too but reviews and feedback is also important. Our writing is a part of us, something we like and value about ourselves and the more positive feedback we get, the better we feel; the "I want to be valued for what I like about myself" part of our minds gets a boost. So I think there's nothing bad about "wanting reviews". I love getting reviews, I feel better about myself every time someone new likes my story.
I hope your muse comes back soon.

And I'm going to keep my fingers crossed tomorrow from the other side of the pond. I hope all those sleezeballs will get booted out of office.

[stormkeeper_lovedoris]

Amen to everything you said! Sometimes I feel I'm being...greedy or something for wanting reviews. But I suppose there's no harm in feeling like 'hey I did a good job on this; I want to know that a few other people like it too.'

It's also hard to see fics that you feel aren't any better than yours getting tons or reviews. I gotta admit that.