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My cold has gotten a bit worse. I hope it passes soon! I don't have much energy to do much of anything.
This last week at work has historically been one of my sub-department's busiest, and this year was no exception. As many of you know, my sub-department is three people: Dave (the boss), Sheri (who just joined us in July), and me. I like both of my coworkers a lot; they are both really wonderful people and I consider myself very fortunate to work with them. I've always felt that Sheri is a very very high performer. Since she started with us, it has been interesting having someone at the same level as I am who is clearly a stellar performer. On one hand, it is an inspiration to do better. On the other hand, it makes me a tad nervous. I guess insecurity is rearing its ugly head. Although I've always gotten very good performance ratings (often getting the highest rating possible -- no easy feat as we have a forced distribution for the whole department at large), I can clearly see that Sheri is truly exceptional. She's very intelligent, innovative, detail-oriented, customer-focused, she searches for the answer until she finds it, she retains more of what was said at meetings and acts on it, etc, etc. Though I believe I possess many of those qualities, I don't have the same degree of them that she does and I really need to step it up here.
By the way, I'm not fishing for compliments or anything like that. I'm just facing the reality that a super-star performer has joined the team and I need to view this as an opportunity for inspiration rather than get down on myself because I'm not the performer that she is.
This last week at work has historically been one of my sub-department's busiest, and this year was no exception. As many of you know, my sub-department is three people: Dave (the boss), Sheri (who just joined us in July), and me. I like both of my coworkers a lot; they are both really wonderful people and I consider myself very fortunate to work with them. I've always felt that Sheri is a very very high performer. Since she started with us, it has been interesting having someone at the same level as I am who is clearly a stellar performer. On one hand, it is an inspiration to do better. On the other hand, it makes me a tad nervous. I guess insecurity is rearing its ugly head. Although I've always gotten very good performance ratings (often getting the highest rating possible -- no easy feat as we have a forced distribution for the whole department at large), I can clearly see that Sheri is truly exceptional. She's very intelligent, innovative, detail-oriented, customer-focused, she searches for the answer until she finds it, she retains more of what was said at meetings and acts on it, etc, etc. Though I believe I possess many of those qualities, I don't have the same degree of them that she does and I really need to step it up here.
By the way, I'm not fishing for compliments or anything like that. I'm just facing the reality that a super-star performer has joined the team and I need to view this as an opportunity for inspiration rather than get down on myself because I'm not the performer that she is.
