Been ok lately

 
Life always feels worse, to me, when there's a Republican in the white house and when my in-laws are having health struggles. The former makes every injustice in this world feel worse, and the latter means that Doris has to spend more time away from me. So - that is the situation right now. Just been feeling like physical heaviness, a weight on my chest. So many worries about the future. So many things that can get worse and I am so fearful of losing the life that I enjoy.

I'll be okay. I tell myself to take those worries one day at a time and think about what I can actually control now.

Also, my usual gratitude list always feels so silly and small. Maybe that is all the more reason to do it. So here it is.

- Was asked to rep my team at an in-person meeting today. Got 2 compliments on my necklace. And the lunch they served included a vegan option, a really good one (seitan brocoli stir fry), which really shocked me as I never actually registered for the meeting so I never requested a special meal. They just had it. And the meeting itself went well. I never spend enough time being grateful for my job

- Also got a nice compliment from one of my new teammates (for the new temporary project I am on)

- Doris came and got me out of an embarrassing situation where I wedged my car into a spot that I feared I couldn't get out of. So she came and pulled the car out. I never spend enough time grateful for her. (Also, I am grateful for the fact that there are 2 other people I could've called who would've helped, Chris and John)

- Game night was Saturday, and Scrabble date is in 4 days. I never spend enough time grateful for my friends.

- Thankful also for family and for my health



- A potentially very messy situation was resolved yesterday. Long story short: noticed gas smell in kitchen, called the gas co at 6:30am, they arrived within an hour, did their thing, said I need a plumber to fix 2 valves and that until that is done the gas needs to be off, called plumbers, they came in about 5 hours, fixed it, called the gas co, they said they will come today to turn the gas - and thus the HEAT - back on but it might not be till 10pm, but they arrived by 4 and fixed it all. WHEW!! Also, thank goodness for a job that lets me work from home

- Fannish stuff like I am re-into X-men yet again (they always live rent-free in my head), and re-watching MST3K eps I like. I imagine it's because I need the comfort

- And I was just assigned my Malec fic exchange fic, and I wrote up a good, 1500 word draft in 2 days. It just needs brushing up and is done!