Totally unrelated topics - X-men fanfic, sex drive, and worry

[stormkeeper_lovedoris]

X-men fanfic
I’ve been re-reading my ginormously long X-men fanfic lately. I finished the trilogy four years ago and said I was done with it…I mean, if I can’t say all I want to say about the X-men in 734,000 words (that’s not a typo – the trilogy really is that long), then I need help. Lately I’ve been toying with the idea of writing some Spiderman fanfic, but now I seem to want to write more X-men. Maybe a 4th book to the long-ass series, though the only plot bunny I have right now is that I want an older Jubilee to realize that she’s happy being single despite all the years she thought that being part of a couple would make her life complete. I came to this realization during emails with denisia; I want to score one for singledom (even though I’m happily partnered)!

My sex drive
It’s over 7 days without Seasonique, and my sex drive appears to be slowly making a comeback. I’m sure that’s partly why I want to write more fanfic, though if I do write more X-men stuff, it won’t be a smutfest like before.


Worry
I wonder what it would be like if I lived my life without worry. Instead of worrying about how hard my life might be if I had a child or worrying about how I would handle it if I ever was promoted to the next level at work, it would be neat if I could just live. What is stopping me?

Someone once asked me if by worrying about things, do I think I can control them?

Comments

re: worry

[stormer1-1.livejournal.com]

Gurl I FEEL you. Past year or two I have been wrestling with a massive case of panic disorder. It can really be over anything for me. It's either that or a massive case of depersonalization/numbness. But whatever, I guess that's not unexpected in cases such as mine. :P Xanax is my bestest friend.

Worry, dear. Worry is what stops ya. And yeah, my own worry does come from thinking if I worry about it enough, it won't happen. Grandmas, wars, nukes, loved ones, car crashes, rape, medical emergencies...you name it, I'm terrified of it. I deal, but it ain't easy.

[nytshd3.livejournal.com]

i am all for scoring one for singledom :D

and i'm very very glad your sex drive is coming back! yay!

i think worry is an offshoot of being a planner. you get used to things being a certain way, knowing what stuff to expect, what to look out for, what is the most likely thing to happen. but there's some shit that totally knocks you into left field... stuff ya can't really plan for, or stuff that you can sorta plan for but even if ya try, it's still gonna be a lot of drastic changes and whatnot. i think some is fear of the unknown as well. i dunno, i grew up with a worrier so it just doesnt seem all that unusual to me ;)

[schizoauthoress.livejournal.com]

Yay for the return of the sex drive! I know it's really been bothering you. ::hug::

I've never even considered life without worry. Doesn't worry mean that you care -- about what happens to you, about other people, about your life? I can't imagine not worrying about things, even if it was just little things.