3 things plus wtf
Oct. 30th, 2018 05:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
stormkeeper_lovedoris1. This one's from a few days ago but I'll use it. Friday I worked from home, and on the last Friday of the month Doris gets out of work early. It was so great to spend the evening and part of the afternoon with her! Plus I got a massage that day too.
2. Walking home from the el today, the weather was so good. Blue sky, not too cold, leaves on trees turning pretty colors. I even snapped a picture and posted it to FB.
3. I need to remember to be grateful for the fact that I still have been sleeping like a baby.
And now on the WTF side...
For the past week or so, the intensity I feel for my OTP and my fandom has started to wane. I actually hate that feeling! It's like I miss it when it starts to go. I haven't written any fanfic for a while, and I don't even have much desire to read others' fanfic. (I did post something yesterday but it's something I finished writing 2 weeks ago. I should post it here just for the heck of it).
I want to get back to that crazy-in-love feeling and the desire to just get on the computer and write a ton of fanfic!
Well, I guess I need to remind myself...
- Since July, I've written 6 fanfics (some of which were long!) and I've been 'into' this fandom since a few months before that. Maybe my brain just needs a break for a while. Maybe the passion will return and I'll write more once I've had a little hiatus.
- Maybe this isn't so bad. I'll have more time to read actual books. We don't get new episodes of the show for 9 more months so perhaps it's good to mentally step away.
- Maybe it's better to be a bit checked out than to be angsting over not getting more fic reviews?
- This isn't like me though. Usually once I'm in a fandom, I'm in it for a while. My last fandom was like this too (Star Trek Discovery); I didn't stay in it nearly as long as I thought I would. Perhaps as I get older, I don't devote as much time and energy to fandoms as I used to? Or I'm getting more apt to check out faster?
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Date: 2018-10-30 11:14 pm (UTC)I myself have a tendency to just quickly switch between fandoms without warning, because BRAIN WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?!?? Which is why I so often leave stuff unfinished. Thankfully, that didn't happen with that Doctor Who fic, but it was a near miss. *phew*
Maybe for you it feels sadder because you don't immediately jump to another that's bringing you a comparable amount of glee? I can kind of imagine what that's like, but it hasn't happened to me that often. I've gone full-tilt into Yuri!!! On Ice myself, so that's where all my fandom energy is going.
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Date: 2018-10-31 12:04 am (UTC)Good point...maybe it hurts worse because I don't have anything else lined up in terms of fandom. I'm still planning to finish my re-watch of SHIELD and still enjoying it, so that's good.
Hmmmm....Yuri on Ice looks good. I might add it to my 'to watch' list.
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Date: 2018-10-31 02:03 am (UTC)Maybe when you get to the end with That Scene your feels will kick back in. That Scene is pretty powerful.
And OMG Yuri On Ice is SO GOOOOOOD! I was completely blown away. That's gonna be my retrospective series for November. (I already have the first two entries mostly written. That's the other thing--I have to keep up the pace before the fandom wanes again.)
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Date: 2018-11-01 12:01 am (UTC)I hope so; I've always loved Season 5, so maybe when I get there in my rewatch, the passion will come back. In the midst of Season 2 right now, which is my least favorite because FitzSimmons are either apart or at odds almost all season long. I really do miss being preoccupied with my OTP and writing about them!
Yuri is now definitely on my 'to watch' list! About 20 other shows are on it so it may be a while, but it's on there.
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Date: 2018-11-04 08:13 pm (UTC)no subject
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