I feel a bit like an idiot

[stormkeeper_lovedoris]

I'm not sure quite how I feel right now. I'm at a 4 day planning meeting with my department and - long story short - there are very icky group dynamics and I've never felt that I fit in too well with these folks. Today at dinner they asked me to join them afterwards at the bar, something that I never do because: 1) I'm not a drinker, hardly ever drink booze, and 2) the group dynamics are icky, like I said. I don't know why I agreed to join them at the bar; maybe it was because I was happy that they asked and deep down I do want to fit in.

So long story short, I joined them, drank too much, made somewhat of an ass of myself. Maybe not a total ass but a partial ass. Everyone was friendly and smiling but in my gut I don't feel this went well.

One of them did say that I was always welcome to join them and never had to drink booze, that I could just have water. That was nice.

Well, done is done. Hopefully my credibility isn't too shot with this group. And like I said, I never fit in that well to start with so...how much worse could it be?

I guess I'll see tomorrow.

Comments

[nytshd3.livejournal.com]

thats it? i would say it would hurt your career if you took off your shirt and danced on the bar, or if you picked someone up and started making out with them, but if you were just tipsy and acting tipsy... you were out at a bar. just don't apologize about it cuz then it gives the impression that you did something wrong, and ya didnt. :)

[stormkpr.livejournal.com]

*nods* You're right. My behavior was goofy but I don't think it was so bad. This morning at the meeting, a few coworkers asked if I was ok, if I had a headache. But everyone was nice and about as cool as can be. So I'm fine.

[nytshd3.livejournal.com]

kewl beans :D

now whenever i get laid off and we have my leaving fs party you'll have to come to the bar n hang out n see what the non-corporate world is like when we go drinking together ;)